What do you do when you wake?

For me, it's not getting up and running for the loo, it's not cuddling up under the duvet, it's not getting a drink, It is checking to see if I am still alive. Sound weird? I agree it does, but this is my life. This is my Health anxiety, my first though most mornings is well I made it through the night, but maybe I will die later. In my logical state of mind, this sounds like the most idiotic thing in the world. In the height of my anxiety I really believe I am going to die. Does this explain my blog title?